"Happy" New Year

Hi there...

I hope there's still people reading. So.. here we have another year that finishes and a new one ahead. And like many other people I sort of did my own recount of what 2007 brought and what I leave behind, and what I expect of 2008, or better said... what I would like to achieve (as I don't expect anything anymore).

So 2007 has left me with a few good things behind, like my great academic situation with the perfect advisor and things sort of moving forward. Also on the list of good things I would say are the great improvements on my boarding skills (snow, surf, skate...), but more important than anything else, the feeling that no matter where I go, and no matter how long I'm away, I have the best friends in the world and the best family ever that are always there loving me like they always did. 

But of course like all the other years it has had its bad things. Many economic problems that thanks god are getting solved (thanks Bush for that one... 1 Euro=1.5 Dollar, and my mum... ;)), chaos in school until I got the right advisor, and of course... the constant... all those girls! Now, I guess part of my problem is I'm starting to get obsessed with the idea that I'm getting old, and I might end up alone. But if I look at the facts... well, this hasn't been the best year. I lied hope in two girls, the first lied, cheated and finally dumped me. The second... well the second gave me the worst beginning of the year, and destroyed all my feelings in less than a week. Moreover, I have learnt that I don't get over certain ones, I never really do, no matter how hard I try to forget...

So 2008 is here and I have to say I started it with a lesson, maybe a reminder, could even be a guiding sign. What I learned from this very few days of 2008 is to stop searching, or expecting. I tend to let life and the powerful forces of the universe guide my life, but I think I also "expect" too much many times. I'm going to stop "expecting", not from myself, but from the rest of the people. I suppose at this point in life we all become selfish. I have tried not to, and probably I'm of the few that can "afford" it. So I understand that selfish behaviour, it's life pushing you around, making you settle, compromise for someone, compromise for your future... Then what do I "expect" of myself in 2008...

I want to achieve many academic goals, advance to candidacy, publish some more papers, and learn a bunch more of math. I want to achieve sentimental stability, steady and not seasonal, be ok with the idea of a future on my own, get over so many past stories...

I expect of me to be a better person, the best that I can be. Show more often how much I love and miss my family. And last but not least get fit, and healthier, put more sport in my life, as much as possible, cause it has become clear that endorphins and adrenaline are the best painkillers for the soul.

One last note... if you guys wonder wtf am I doing posting at 6.30 am... well... I though it was jetlag, now I'm starting to wonder if all this work and sentimental stress has caused me a mild insomnia (coz I just slept barely 4 hours).

So let me know guys anything I should add to my lists... or what is in yours...

I miss you guys!